Helen’s POV:
All of a sudden, I felt like my body was hurtling through the air and I was falling at breakneck speed.
Darkness swarmed my sight, blocking my view.
Terror gripped me.I came back to my senses, to find myself sitting on cold train tracks.
Horrified, I turned around to find a train speeding towards me, its bright headlights blinding as it
approached.I thought that my life was over.
The next second, a scream came from the platform.I raised my head to find a tall figure dashing
towards me.
The next moment, I was lifted off the tracks and thrown onto the platform.
The train was already very close.My heart was in my mouth! He was going to get crushed! At the last
second, he pushed himself up with his hands and climbed into the platform He had just climbed up
when the train whizzed by, right where he had been a second ago.
The people standing around were so shocked, no one could react for a few seconds.I lay on the floor,
my body completely stiff.My back broke out in a sweat and I couldn’t utter a word.
By the time the subway staff got to where I was, the onlookers had already started cursing at me.
"If you want to commit suicide, surely you can find a way to do it without risking other lives!"
"You would have been ground into pieces of meat if someone hadn’t been here to save you!" I lay
quietly, listening to their voices.
Even though most were angry, I also heard some kind -hearted comments from people trying to
comfort me, saying that suicide was never the answer.I knew I wasn’t trying to kill myself though.I’d
seen the silhouette of the person that pushed me.
George rushed toward me and gave me a hug.
After he’d tried to soothe me by stroking my face gently, he asked me in a low voice, "Are you alright?"
His hands trembled just as much as his voice did.His eyes were full of fear as he held me as tight as he
could.It all happened too fast and I still felt a lingering fear even though I knew I was now safe in
George’s arms.
George kept trying to comfort me with his words.
"It’s all right.You’re safe now."
I looked up at him and shook my head as I continued sobbing.It was hard for me to get my words out.
"I wasn’t trying to commit suicide.Someone pushed me."
George continued stroking my hair and he said, "Don’t worry.I know.It’s over now.Don’t be
scared.You’re safe."
The staff standing by the side seemed not to know what to do.
They hesitated for a while and then asked, "Do you need any help?"
George looked up at them and asked, "Can we see the surveillance video, please?"
"Okay, sir."
The staff immediately led us to the monitoring room where we’d see the surveillance video.The video
showed me and George standing side by side on the platform waiting for the train, as clear as day.
All of a sudden, a horrified look flashed across my face.I just looked behind me, and then I jumped into
the track.
No one actually pushed me.
Other than George, the person closest to me was at least four feet away from me.
Subway staff were also around maintaining order on the platform.My heart sank as I finally figured out
what happened.I hallucinated again, and it was worse than before.I had suffered many hallucinations
before, but I never tried to hurt myself until today.I wondered what would have happened if George
hadn’t been with me… The passing train would have run me over.I couldn’t even think about it without
shivering George hugged me and patted my back gently, comforting me.
"There’s nothing to be scared of.I’m right here with you."
Seeing the surveillance video only made the staff and security personnel criticize us more.George
apologized profusely.
"Well, just be careful next time," one staff member grumbled in response.
"If you have a mental illness, please visit a doctor as soon as possible."
It was then that I realized the severity of the problem and that I couldn’t put off getting treatment any
longer.The only reason I survived today was that George was right beside me.
Who knew what would happen in the future? How would I cope if it got worse? If anything happened to
me, and my mother ended up alone, I wondered how much pain she would feel, George took me
straight to the psychiatrist without giving me a chance to refuse.
I answered all the doctor’s questions honestly just like the last time I was there.
And just like the last time, they both said I was completely healthy.Both doctors had the conviction that
it was caused by external factors.
"Miss Dewar, has there been any significant change in your life in the past few months?"
The doctor repeated this question because he couldn’t place a finger on the cause of my symptoms.I
also repeated the same answer.
"No, there hasn’t been any change.I still have the same routine."
On second thought, I added, "Well, pressure from work has been a little more than usual.Could it be
that?"
I was a perfectionist, so naturally, I was usually under a lot of pressure.The doctor shook his head.
"You need to find time to rest.You shouldn’t be putting too much pressure on yourself in this condition.I
would advise you have a change of environment for a while so we can see if that improves your
condition.
"Okay, I’ll try," I promised.
The doctor scheduled two consulting appointments for me in the next two weeks before I left with
George .When we left the hospital, George suddenly said, "I’m taking you home to rest today.You
shouldn’t go anywhere in this state.I won’t let you."
I said nothing as I took a look at my phone and saw two missed calls.One was from Anya, and the
other was from Phil.
This incident happened so suddenly that I didn’t have time to request a leave, so they had no idea what
had happened to me.I immediately called Anya back.
"I’m so sorry, Miss Pierce.I had an accident on my way to work.I’m afraid I won’t be able to come
today."
Anya’s voice was filled with concern.
"Okay, you can have some time off.Are you alright?"
"I’m fine.It wasn’t anything serious, so don’t worry.I’ll schedule a new appointment with Mr.Wilson."
"No problem."
After my leave was approved, I breathed a sigh of relief and turned to look at George.He had his
seatbelt on and was staring out the car window with a serious look on his face.
"Thank you so much, George."
He had saved my life for the second time.The first time had been at the cafe in Philly.
That was the day Breck almost raped me.He just came from nowhere and saved me.
The situation today was more dangerous than the last time and he risked his life to save mine without
hesitation.It was right there in the surveillance video.He jumped off the platform without thinking twice.
It seemed as if I was more important to him than any other thing.His actions touched me deeply but the
more he acted like that, the less I knew how to face him.I kept quiet and leaned against the car window.
George didn’t say anything either until he slammed the brake at the traffic lights at an intersection.
That was when he pulled me into his arms and held me tightly.
"Helen, please.You need to take better care of yourself."The fear in his voice was heavy.
"Alright," I promised him.
"Let’s go and visit my mother."
The doctor said my mother was getting better.She had been triggered by Libby’s visit, but she
recovered quickly.
The doctor had called me several times recently to tell me I could take my mother home on weekends
as I did before her latest episode, but I was too busy, and I was not in the best headspace myself.I
didn’t want to make my mother worry about me.
Today, however, I almost lost my life and it made me want to see my mother.
I hesitated for a long while before I made up my mind to ask George to take me to the hospital.
From the moment he jumped off the platform to save me without thinking twice, the walls I built around
my heart had completely collapsed.
I was willing to show George every part of my life, including my past. It didn’t matter if we could be
together or not in the end, at least I wanted to be completely honest with him about the real situation of
my family.
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