I wonder what he is doing right now.
Since I'm tired I fell asleep easily.
"Love, roses for you!" it's Raze, still wearing his tux then he give me a 3 white roses.
"I missed you, love!" he added and kiss my forehead before he spun around, obviously to leave.
"Please, don't leave. Raze!"
Whoooo~
I woke up. I had a dream.
It seems so real.
I smeared my palm at my face then observe my heartbeat, it's wild like it's really scared.
I check the wall clock, it's already 3:00am. I suddenly shiver as I remember about the devil's time. Is
that real?
"Whaaa!" I scream as I saw the three white roses at the side table. A roses on my dreams, how come
that it existed? Is that real? My eyes isn't tricking me?
I slowly touch it and it's real. I'm not dreaming? or the dream and the roses was just happened by
coincidence?
Did Raze get inside here like what happened on my dreams? Aish! Instead of thinking more deeply
about it I decided to sleep and distracted myself from that scary moment.
"Cath? Cath!"
"Hmm?" I groan
"Cath! Raze already arrived!" as I heard that my system automatically turned on.
"Good morning mother Sharn. He already arrived? It means he didn't go home yesterday?" I curiously
asked.
"Yeah! He has a visitor!" he answered.
If he just arrived then who put the flowers at my table? That's mysterious!
"Who's his visitor mother Sharn?"
"He introduced her earlier, she's Alona Sanchez."
"WHAT?"
"Why Cath? You know her?"
"Ah, no! Sorry for overreacting but I don't know her!" I said and stood, loosing now the reason why I
have to smile.
"It's fine, I gotta go now. Hurry up!" she replied so I nod.
I wanna see that Alona girl so I do my morning rituals and rush outside after that.
"Good morning, Erika! Do you see Raze?" I ask then she pout.
"Huh?" I don't get it but her lips was pointing the 2nd floor.
"He's at the movie room with the woman!" she whisper.
My blood suddenly boil. I'm that freaking hot.
"Thanks, did he request anything?"
"Yeah! He ask for a tea and a toasted bread."
"Already given?"
"Not yet but maybe Nely is preparing it right now."
"Okay, thanks. Gotta do it!" I said before I leave and go at the kitchen.
Nely's already preparing like what Erika just said.
The tea pot and the tea cups was already in the tray, she's just waiting for the toasted bread.
As planned, I convinced Nely and I'm on my way to the movie room now. A witty move. Lol!
I knock on the door.
"Just get in!" I heard his voice and suddenly my heart is pounding. I even twist the door knob nervously
and push the food cart inside.
"Good morning!" I greeted.
I don't know if I should call him Raze, sir or señorito. I was pretty occupied and super confused.
"Owh! Thanks Cath!" he just answer. He was shocked to see me but he fastly recover.
"Who are you?" A beautiful woman ask. She has a right?
She's wearing a crop top, revealing some skin with her denim skirt.
"Just a mere servant!" I answer instead of answering 'You don't care!' that's against on my will but I had
no choice, he call me by name which is very unusual. I'm just doing thing in his favor.
Is he that shy to introduce me as a girlfriend? That's absurd, right?
Arggh! He is driving me crazy.
"I'll leave the tray!" I said and put it at the coffee table.
"Please excuse me señorito, Miss!" I said and how before I turn my back with the food cart. Being that
polite wasn't really my thing.
"Cath?" he called before I take a step outside.
"Anything else señorito?" I ask though it kills me, it kills me calling him that. It sounds that I'm a
stranger and everything turns to zero.
"Ah, nothing. Thanks!" he responded that breaks my heart.
"okay!" I reply calmy and leave.
I'm jealous!
Seeing them together tear my lovely heart, it's painful.
Whooo~
My eyes became teary, I'm not really fine yet I don't have to let my guard down. Am I ready for a severe
heartache? No, I guess.
"I have to go now!" I said, informing mother Sharn when she ask me to stay for no reason.
I can't afford seeing him with her.
I know and understand Sabrina's feelings when I'm with Raze now. I really do. It's hell.
"Are you okay?" Seb ask me as I get inside the car and of course I have to drop a lie.
"I'm okay!" that was my reply though I wanna cry.
I can't understand, what he is trying to show?
Did he already realized that he must not choose me? That he has to choose someone who can reach
his level? Damn it!
"Cath! You're crying!" Seb saw it.
"H-huh? I-I'm not! My eyes was just irritated by the aircon. I guess!" I reasoned out and wipe my tears, I
didn't notice it tho. I just feel the heavy feelings inside me, a cruel one that keeps on torturing my
insides innocences.
"I'll deactivate it then!" he said and off the aircon at my side. He is supporting my excuse though it's
obvious, I cried. I guess, he understands me.
Call me overreacting!
Call me paranoid but seeing him with her really stabs my heart.
What are they going to do at the movie room? What are they planning to do at the mansion?
"Waaaaaahhhh!" I cry out loud.
"Cath! Here!" Seb hand me a box of tissue like he really bring it knowing that I'm gonna cry today, like
he predicted it.
"Did you accidentally bite your tongue? I often experience that, it's hurt right?" he said again.
"You're crazy but thanks!" then he show me his commiserative smile.
"Everything happens with a reason" he added.
How did he know that I'm suffering inside?
You cried! my ego chided it without consideration. :(
We arrived at Texno but I stay inside the car for a couple of minutes just to calm myself.
I was walking like a zombie when my phone vibrated. I have a caller.
I ignore it at first yet it rangs again so I took it out an answer it boredly without looking who's the caller.
"Finally, hey! What are you doing?" I recognize her voice, it's Cynthia.
"Ahm, walking! 'bout you?" I ask coldly.
"You sounds sick, are you okay? Heart problem?" Bingo! She got me, she hit the bullseye perfectly.
"I'm just sleepy, anyway, what's up? Why you called?" I yawn so I can convince her.
"Yiee, I have some good news. I treat you a ticket for ICEcore's fans fest" she giggled, I can imagine
her smiling right now.
"Really? Thanks!" I make myself sounds excited so I can't disappoint her.
I don't have to tell her my pain either, it might ruin the vibe.
"Yes and if you're free later we can but ICEcore's merchandise and wear it tomorrow." She's really
excited and who am I to ruin her excitement?
I'm going to support her, it's my first time going to a fans fest and I think it would be so much fun yet I'm
not a solid fan.
"Sure, I can free my time" I'll overtime instead.
"Yey! that settles it then. We're going at Royale Place around 11am so we can lunch together. What do
you think?"
"Sure, it's fine for me. You don't have a work?"
"I have but I have a kind, very thoughtful and considerate bosses" She replied and giggle. That was
soothing that makes me want to hear her giggle again. That's weird though.
"Good for you then, I'll drop the call now. Chat you later Cynth, bye!" I said because I already arrived at
our floor.
"Bye, see you. Mwaah!" she act up before I end the call.
I was alone at our room because the rest said that they're facilitating something, go over the games
process, they let the other team critique our idea, do a survey and to get approval at our head games
director.
I'm just doing an animation right now, it's quite fun that drift me away from bad thoughts.
I search for ICEcore's music and play it while working.
His voice can make you dazed, make your heart pound, it's odd and oddly dulcet voice though it's
whole yet it's flawless and soothing.
He sang like he's a witch who spoke a spell to allure it's listener. I almost fell asleep yet it's already
11am so I prepare.
"I'm going outside to meet a friend, I'll just overtime later." I wrote at the note and display it at the
bulletin board so my team can see it easily.
I booked a great taxi and arrived at the Royale place ahead of Cynthia, the ground floor was a bit
different than the first time I go here. The shops was organized and there's a lot of shoppers around.
I saw some girls with a wide smile while holding an album. Oh? It's ICEcore's album.
Wow! ICEcore is really a cool celebrity.
I waited for almost 20 minutes before Cynthia arrived, she even surprised me with a hug.
There's a long line at the 6th floor, obviously a patience tester to get the merch.
It took us an hour and a half to but the merch.
We buy ICEcore's shirt, jacket and his album but his personalized necklace was already sold out.
His merch had a nice design and a good quality so no wonder why all the supplies got sold out for
hours.
The jacket and the shirt had his logo and a gold ICEcore word display at the back with a hot font. It's
really worth for filling in the line and it's worth to wear too.
Cynthia was just pulling me everywhere to buy some stuffs. We buy the same pair of hidden heels
shoes, the same dress and the same design of sweatshirt though it's different in color.
Yeah! We shop first before eating so I'm really starving right now.
We eat at Garifo that reminds me of Raze's dad. His scary personality.
Before I and Cynthia apart she reminds me that we must go at Taz hotel early tomorrow, as possible.
Taz hotel was just a meters away from the arena where the fan fest will be held
"Yeah! See you tomorrow" I reply and wave her goodbye.
The fans fest will start around 2pm tomorrow and it'll ends around 10, I guess and Cynthia was
planning to have a quality time with me after the first since it's too late to go home. I see no problem at
her plan, is time to unwind tho.
I booked a grab again and and arrived safely at Texno exactly 3:30 pm, do I work my project
immediately because the superior may check it later.
"Lorence, we're going home now, don't rush. Okay?" Ranz concernly say it while the girls just wave.
Tik tak!
I check the time, it's almost 5pm.
"Sure, thanks Ranz!" I just and stretch my back, I feel numb right there.
I was finalizing the ads animation when I received a message from Sebastian. "I can't fetch you. I'm
going back at my home town to visit my family. Take care!"
Aww! That's sad.
"Take care Seb." I just replied. I can book a grab.
I sent the animation at the project site and chat Mr. Castro, our superior to check it. He said he'll update
me tomorrow, I call it a day then.
While walking I received a notification at messenger.
'Ivor wants to video call with you' I don't see a reason to ignore his call.
"Yo! What's up man?" I excitedly utter.
"Hey beautiful, I'm here around Clasizo, street 5. Where are you? I bet you're still at your work place.
Can I send you home?" he is really straight forward.
"Ahm, sure! I'm not really into rejecting someones offer."
"Really? Can you be my girlfriend then?"
"Ha?" that's kind of shocking, isn't it?
"Just kidding, I just wanna see if you're 'Not really into rejecting someones offer' " he said mocking my
line earlier.
I see, he's just teasing me and I didn't realized it sooner.
I end the call, he can't talk to me while driving.
I'm waiting patiently at the parking area when a familiar car stop in front of me.
The wind shield slowly open.
"Hey, hop in!" it's Raze and I saw the same girl as earlier sitting at the shotgun seat, she wave at me,
she's Alona Sanchez.
Hayss! Why did she smile? I have the obligation now to smile back, so, I did, I force myself to smile.
"No, thanks!" If I join in the ride I'll call myself a martyr, I'm just hurting myself inside knowing that my
heartbeat was driving and a killer was inside too. That's called invalid suicide.
"Why? Seb can't do the job for you so get in!" he seriously say yet he sounds commanding.
"I'm expecting for someone at this time!" I replied honestly.
"Who? A stranger? You're safe with me so don't force me to go out and pull you!" hayss. Raze being
possessive.
I look around, there's a lot of people. It's embarrassing if he'll forcely pull me to get in, people may think
that he's a handsome kidnapper.
A kidnapper that won't ask for a ransom.
"What?" he repeated
Yeah! I feel bad, I want to ignore him but I can't so I get inside, as if I had a choice. It's just that I'm
being unfair to Ivor so I chatted him 'I'm on my way home' and unexpectedly, he call via messenger.
"Hey! I'm really sorry. I'm on my way home now." I explained. I really feet guilty.
"It's fine but you have to get back next time!" he is smiling. I guess he is hiding disappointment so I
won't feel uncomfortable.
"Sure, Sure! I'm gonna hung up your call now. Take care!" I said and press the red button. End call.
I saw Raze looking at me through the rearview mirror, I turn away my gaze and look outside. I'm trying
to ignore their laughters while we're on our way yet I can't afford it any longer that made me grab and
plug my earphones and listen to some instrumental music.
A soothing one that can calm your whole but no matter how soothing the music was, I still can't deny to
myself that I'm furiously eaten by jealousy.
That sucks!
"Raze, I forget that I have something to do tomorrow so I really need to go home." I heard Alona.
We're heading inside the mansion now, it's already dark so the lamp post was bright.
"What? I told you that you can sleep here, you're warmly welcome at my home." Shoot! Hearing that
response was absorbing my whole strength.
"I know that, thank you very much. We still have to meet tomorrow right?"
"Yeah! I'm quite excited. I even want to pull the time." he reply sweetly and laugh.
I really want to cry and get lost now. Is he just nice or he really don't care about my feelings? Is he
making a reason for me to give up? Fuck! He can tell me frankly tho.
I really want to go out the car immediately and I really regret getting inside his fuckin' car. I feel like I'm
being tortured. Shit!
"We're here Cath!" I was informed by Raze.
"I know!" I coldly reply.
"I'm going to send Alona home, tell Masha. Thanks by the way." If I'm cold, he was colder.
How can he do this to me? He is acting like he never love me, never had a memories with me and
never wanted me to be the last woman in his life. I bet he forget all of it.
"Sure! Take care!" I said, acting like I'm not hurt as I say it like I'm giving him to her without a fight, like I
never care about what are they going to do, like I never felt jealousy and like I had nothing inside me to
feel bad about it though I'm actually burning inside, the pain is gradually eating me wildly.
Then, as I settled myself at the ground I followed the car by my gaze with a sad sigh.
If he's happy with her then I have to set him free and be happy for him. Martyr!
To make myself busy and distracted, I drive the golf cart at the backyard with it's fastest speed back
and forth until I felt dizzy and tired, I felt sleepy after the dinner, without Raze again so I sleep.
I felt very exhausted when I woke up the next day, I also saw a bouquet of red roses at my side table
though I didn't have a dream. The 3 white roses was on the case near the window. Mother Sharn
maybe did it.
I'm on my PJ's when I went outside, holding the bouquet of roses with the intention to ask mother
Sharn about it.
Suddenly...
"I promise, I'llmake your heart completely mine!" Raze voice echoed on my mind. He did, he
successfully made my heart one of his property yet my heart is soon to be shattered.
"Good morning Lorence!" girls greeted me.
"You guys seems very busy!" I said while I scobs my right eye.
"Yeah! Since we're going somewhere later." Erika answer while smiling widely, I found it weird yet I'm
happy that she's feeling alright.
"Really but I'm not invited? Anyway, where's mother Sharn?" I ask, slightly grouching. Why I'm not
invited? Nevermind, I have my own destination later.
"Sorry, that walk is ofor single citizen only!" they laugh
"That's not fair but I hope you can get a man."
"Hope so, About mother Sharn she's at the kitchen."
"Thanks, I'm going now!"
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"Hi Cath!" as always, Kyle was Hyper.
"Hi, hi mother Sharn, Chef Markus!" I greeted then I put down the flowers at the table and sat at the
high chair.
"Whats wrong?" mother Sharn asked me like as worried citizen.
"Where did this flowers came from? They're quite creepy!" I directly stated.
"Ah, someone delivered that for you but I can't see a note on the flowers"
"Yieee, you have a secret admirer Cath!" Kyle joked and laugh alone.
I see, the flowers aren't from Raze. I'm disappointed.
"Hayss, okay! I'm going to prepare now, bye everyone" I said then grab the flowers and throw it at the
kitchens trash can before I continue heading back .
Raze really love to ignore me in pain, I want to talk to him but I don't have enough courage to face him,
I want to ask him and to listen at his explainations but we don't have the same free time and he is quite
busy with Alona.
I prepare myself, I bring the new laundry and iron merch of ICEcore so I can go directly at the venue
later without a hassle and I booked a grab taxi again since Seb was still not around. I don't want to see
Raze face either.
The day was like yesterday, a boring one.
"Ms. Celo, someone's waiting for you at the lobby!" it's a guard.
"May I know who's it sir?" I ask, I'm not expecting a visitor tho.
"She's your friend!"
"Thanks, I'm coming." Hmm?
I follow him out of curiosity.
"Cath! Yieeee!" oh! It's Cynthia. She's here. She catch everyones attention because she's excitedly
loud.
"Hey, you're here?"
"Yep, I'm going to fetch you!"
"Huh, why?"
"We're going now.Its already 1:30pm, okay!"
"Hmm, okay. Sorry, I didn't check the time!"
"Don't worry, go now. I'll wait here."
"Sure, enjoy yourself here!" I don't know why I suddenly feel nervous when I'm not really excited to go
at the fans fest in the first place.
I just fix my things and change my clothes, I'm wearing the jacket now which I found very comfortable.
We jump with the time,we arrived at the hotel and have our reservation then as I see the crowd at the
arena I feel some thrill and excitement I bet Cynthia did too.
I didn't know that she get a VIP seat for the both of us, I I know I'm going to treat her the merch. Well,
we're comfortably sitting at our seat near the stage and runway, at the left side if you're looking from the
stage. Got it?
I thought this even was only for ICEcore yet it's for all known Youtubers but the highlight was ICEcore. I
wonder what he is going to do later but maybe because he is going to reveal himself.
His fans is no joke, I can see that ICEcore has the most plenty fans here, I can see a tarpaulin around
and like us, wearing a jacket and some wears shirt.
It's getting started, the two host are now at the stage, introducing the first YouTuber.
I enjoyed every presentation, they are really a YouTuber because they know how to entertain their
audience from their introduction and performance, they are very all out.
After the 6th performance the host informed a break so we have our dinner, we got a food delivery as a
package for having the VIP. Nice service that I didn't know.
The arena can accommodate 100k people as I heard and only few seats was available, I guess there's
about 70k inside. I never seen a crowd as many as what I saw right now mainly because I came from a
province and I was introvert, maybe I can call myself ambivert now.
They change the background while we're eating and they are changing some blocks and stages side
panels and props.
"Alright everyone! Please welcome Riko and Niña" the sound effects was every entertaining and the
smokes too.
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