It is precisely because of this that she feels so grueling and wavering.
After the short yet passionate kiss, Rex pulls the chair beside her and seats himself, handing her the
documents that were printed just now, “Honey, you suffered. Leaf through these documents. Mind your
words during the court session, and make sure they won’t contradict with my arguments.”
Lily is dumbfounded for a while. His arguments?
Is he referring to the arguments about her pleading guilty?
Seeing that Lily doesn’t reply lowering her head, Rex takes her pale face in both hands. She can feel
the warmth from his fingers. Rex consoles her, “Trust me. This is good to you. I will not let you suffer a
little if the case is settled today.”
Lily looks up at him with her empty eyes and smiles, “Can the case be settled today?”
“Yes.” Rex claps her cold palms, “Of course yes.”
Lily shakes her head. Her eyes get red but no tears come out. It seems that she has cried out all her
tears as she has cried too many times before. She murmurs in choked voice, “That’s really cruel.”
"You have me." Rex stretches out his hand and pulls her into his arms, fearing that she might have a
mental breakdown. Seeing her suffering grievance, he feels pierced to the heart with guilt, “This is the
last challenge. I will stand by your side.”
“But this is not the result I want.” She can’t help to blurt out even though it is useless to talk about this
now.
“I know.” Rex gently pats her back to console her, “There are many things that we can’t change. We
can just make a compromise for the sake of the best result. If I were you, I won’t be so overcautious
like this. But Lily, you are the one involved, so I don’t dare to gamble. I don’t want you to take any risk.”
Of course Lily knows this.
However, she still feels a bit angry at his words. She slightly pushes him away and raises her head to
look into his eyes, “Rex, I don’t care. What I want most is a fair judgment. Even if I can’t get the wanted
result in the end, at least I won’t feel sorry for myself and I won’t regret it. If I plead guilty this time, I
can’t take such kind of grievance…”
They gazes meet in the air. This is the first time that Rex sees the sparks of hope in her eyes since the
accident.
She hasn't been so energetic and lively for a long time. It has been so long that recently he could just
constantly cast his mind back to find that energetic Lily…
He wants to agree to her request, but when he thinks of the reality, his speaks out a cold yet rational
sentence, “Lily, I want so, but the reality doesn’t allow us to do that.”
"What's not allowed? Just tell them the truth!” She wants to restore the facts. She didn’t do it, then why
should she be made the scapegoat? “I didn’t kill her. You know it. I don’t want to live with such a stain
in the rest of my life!”
“I believe you. But we need evidence to support this argument. If it is set aside by the court, maybe
they will lengthen your prison sentence…”
“Then what will happen if I plead guilty? ‘Considering her pleading guilty, we plea for a more lenient
sentence’ Ah? Then you prepare to bail me out, right?” Lily wriggles out of his arms and points at her
left chest, “But then, the thought that I am a murderer will conquer my mind all day long, the grievance
I’ve suffered and the sorrow of not being able to prove my innocence will become my nightmare.
Everyone will know that I was a murderer. My parents will be scolded by others, and my relatives will
feel ashamed. Only I myself know that I am not a murderer, however I will not be able to persuade
others to believe me! This is my last chance. I know your suggestion is good to me, but such kind of
shadow will torture me for a life time…”
What she is most sad about is not the trap from Marina or the criticisms from the public; instead, it is
the helplessness of not being able to say out the truth although she is eager to prove innocence. And it
is Rex, her beloved man, requires her to do so.
No one can understand such kind of feeling. Just as the old saying goes, “You will never understand
how painful it is when being pricked with a needle since you are not the one who suffers.”
“Lily!” Rex raises his voice and calls her name, hoping to make her sober by this manner, “I know you
feel painful and are reluctant to accept this. But Lily, what else can we do? This is reality!”
Looking at his red eyes, Lily feels as if her spirit is stripped off from her body, which makes her feel
empty and terrible.
It’s true. He doesn’t want this result either, but he has no choice.
Lily, you put all hopes on Rex, but you forgot that he is a human being not a God. He loves you, but he
can’t completely understand you.
He should weight advantages and disadvantages before making a decision, which is a basic quality of
an adult. Why don’t you understand this? Don’t put him in an embarrassing position again.
When thinking of this, Lily doesn’t know whether she feels completely disappointed or totally relieved,
what she knows that she seems to lose all her emotions and that all of a sudden, she doesn’t want to
fight for herself proactively anymore.
Just let it be.
Ryan was right - she will only drop the idea until she gets the result, which is a kind of torment for her
and Rex.
The court session is just around the corner and there is not enough time for them to talk. Rex wants to
say something, but is interrupted by the staff.
As a lawyer, he should go into the court in advance. Although Rex is worrying about her, he can’t let the
judge wait for him. Before he leaves, he suddenly hugs her tightly, “Do what I said. Just trust me.”
Lily sits still without giving him a response. He strides away, and Lily finally relaxes until the door
behind her is closed.
She looks down at the documents on her leg and twitches her mouth mockingly.
Do what he said?
She will not let him down.
Lily casually puts the documents aside. A staff behind reminds her, “Miss Lily, you’d better read the
documents in case that you may forget the contents later.”
“No need.” Lily declines coldly without hesitation, “It’s unnecessary.”
The staff thinks that she must have been fully prepared and doesn’t insist.
Lily sits still in the room with the same posture until someone opens the door. She is still in the prison
uniform of the detention center. It seems as if she really has committed a crime although she didn’t.
She is then marched to the dock with one armed police on each side. This little woman stands there
with calmness and grace on her face. The onlookers may think that she is incorrigible, but the ones
love her just feel heartbroken upon seeing her expression.
There are neither observers nor visitors for this court session. Only people involved and relevant
working staffs are allowed to stay here.
Looking at Rex who stands not far away from her, Lily is lost in her own thoughts -----
It was weekend and she went downstairs to make a coffee to him. When she entered her study, he was
having a video conference while speaking out jargons from time to time. She understood some of the
jargons, but for some, she didn’t understand. In a word, he exuded charms and confidence, which were
endowed by his profession.
She silently waited aside. When he hung up the video, she stood behind him and massaged his
shoulders to please him, “I’ve been working with you for a long time, but I haven’t given the opportunity
to sit on your lawsuits. When will you take me to the court to experience it?”
As a lawyer, Lily had a kind of heartfelt admiration and respect for seniors like Rex.
He slightly turned his head, “Come here.”
Lily didn’t hear clearly, “What?”
Rex crooked his finger to beckon her to bend down.
Lily didn’t think much and acted obediently. She thought he wanted to tell her something. What she
didn’t expect was that as soon as she stooped, he immediately kissed her on her lips.
“Hmm…” Being panicked, she reached out her hand to push him away. Rex, of course, would not allow
her to run away regardless of her struggles.
When the kiss was finally over, she was out of breath. But Rex was not satisfied and pressed her on
the desk with his hands wandering on her body.
Lily blushed scarlet and struggled to push him away, “I… I was talking some business with you.”
“This is the business.” Rex, without blushing or missing a beat, flirted with her in a calm voice. He was
totally different from just now.
Realizing that she was trapped by him, Lily sulked and showed reluctance to cooperate with him. Rex,
who failed to kiss her, was also a bit annoyed. However, he couldn’t force her, so he could just gently
coaxed her in her ears, “If you perform well, I can bring you to the court for observation. Why be so
stubborn, my silly girl…”
At that time, Lily didn’t expect that one day, she would observe him fending in court at such a close
range. And she herself is the defendant.
Her reminiscence is then interrupted by someone who is calling her name.
“Lily, now you can speak for yourself.” There comes the solemn and cold voice of a female judge from
the tribunal.
Lily then comes to her own sense and is finally aware that it is her turn to speck.
She plucks the black microphone in front of her and leans forward. But she is not in a hurry to speck.
She raises her head and looks at all the people present one by one, and finally fixates her gaze on
Rex. There are apparent worries and expectations in his dark eyes, or exactly, strong expectations with
a trace of begging. She closes her eyes and clenches her fists, her heartbeats quicken. She takes a
deep breath and exhales it slowly, and says word by word, “I didn’t kill her!”
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