Lily is inclined to believe that Rex’s questions are related to her love life, if she has fallen in love with
someone during these five years or if she is in any relationship. When she hears that question,
something breaks inside of her, which was beyond any expectation and leaves her completely petrified.
Silence...
Rex’s eyes are tartarean, as if countless ghosts are wandering inside of them. He raises his eyebrows,
"Patience is not one of my virtues. If you make me wait that long, I might take the deal off the table..."
"Five years!" Shouts Lily, with a storm of emotions reflected on her face.
"I'm only asking something specific." He is a naturally born torturer, asking the questions that Lily wants
to avoid the most.
"We met the day you found me in that small hotel five years ago."
That is quick and unexpected, even quicker than he thought.
He curls his lips mockingly, "To see if I got it right, while I was worried to death looking for you, you
were with him?!"
Lily knows he wouldn't understand if she tells him, "It was an accident."
She had no clue who the man was at that time and she was in a dangerous situation. She just had the
bad luck of falling victim of a misfortunate event. She kept it secret to protect him, she did not want to
make him worried. How could she expect this situation today?
"Accident you say? Well." He gulps several times, showing emotions that need to erupt, "Let’s keep
going. Second question: did you come to Britain together, you and Ryan?"
Lily’s disguised calmness is completely gone now, panic is all over her face and she stutters, "I, I..."
She wants to deny it but lies are not admitted and she definitely is incapable of hiding her true feelings,
he would know for sure!
Nevertheless, to Rex her reaction is already an answer.
The black eyes are filled with disappointment. He repeats the same words, but this time it is not a
question, "You came to Britain with him!"
Lily’s greatest fear has become real - to be totally misunderstood.
"Last question." Rex's heart is bleeding. He has three questions previously arranged and the first
answer wounded him, the second one did too, the last one might ends him or making him forgive her.
He is playing all out and everything depends on her answer.
Rex dwells on it for a long time.
Lily can hardly breathe. She watches him as he walks toward her slowly, step by step. He leans over,
places his hand over her shoulder, getting closer but keeping the safe distance at the same time, he
wants to observe carefully the expressions on her face.
She suddenly regrets agreeing to Rex's request.
It is clear, he must have known something...!
"You…" Time stops, he breaths, "This so-called accident, I need to know, was it a real accident or was
it all contrived?"
Lily feels like a bomb has exploded in her chest, shattering her into thousands pieces.
She hastily lowers her head, her pupils shrink, the whole body shakes like an earthquake and
everything stops when the palm of Rex’s hand pinches her chin raising again her head and making Lily
shout from pain,"Aah!"
"Answer me!" Rex cries fiercely, waiting for an answer.
Lily wants to answer him but also knows in her heart that if she does, the whole world will collapse if
she dares to speak the word ‘Contrived’.
Rex wants an answer, he is already been doing elucubrations and conjectures for five long years, there
is no more room for that, only the truth can be accepted, "Go on, say it!"
"Don't push me!" Lily cannot stand that and tries to get away, "Rex, how can you do this to me..."
"You conspired with him against me, didn’t yout?" A hoarse voice comes out. His fragility finally reveals,
"Why, tell me why!?"
"I had to do it!" Lily closes her eyes, raises her head and roars, taking out all at once five years of
sufferings, "You broke all your promises. You confessed your misdeeds. Have you ever thought of
asking me anything? You believed Marina unconditionally. Have you ever considered my feelings? You
didn't trust me, but you didn't doubt, not for a mere second, the true advocate of the wickedness!"
Rex is astounded by her words .
Lily's tears stream down her cheeks, she swallows the bitter in her throat, "What options did I have left?
What I could have done differently? Turn myself in? Hide and be forever on the run?"
"That is exactly what has been haunting me for all this time! " His voice is about to rupture like glass
under a hammer, "Was it too hard to have faith in me..."
"i did put my faith in you! You diappointed me miserably. You are not worthy anymore." Lily remembers
the feeling when she was waiting Adair secretly and sadness arises, "I couldn’t wait, I really couldn’t
wait."
"So you planned all of it: pretending to be dead, abandoning your family and friends just to leave me?"
Rex knows how much she loves Harry and Bree, and it was precisely because of that he acknowledges
her determination.
In order to leave Rex, she had to give up on everything.
Lily had been sad too, but her sadness is realized by him only now, after five years, "Rex, blame me,
blame me for leaving, blame me for being so cruel but have you ever thought about how desperate I
had to be to choose this way? At that time, mark my words Rex, I had no choices, it was a life-or-death
kind of situation!"
"So you are the victim now?" He laughs, distressingly, "Do you have the slightest idea of what I have
been though during these past five years? I went to the crime scene to find clues and leads every day
for more than two years. Everyone said you were dead, but I never gave up looking for you. I quit being
a lawyer to find you. I was alone against the world and I had to fight with my family and my friends.
They began to call me crazy, lunatic, but I endured it all just for you!"
His eyes are raging, his hairs are shaking alongside with the thundering voice, "Do you know how
much you made me suffer? I did not look at myself in the mirror for years because of the sufferings you
brought upon me! You made me believe that this has been all my fault, that my delay that day had
caused the accident. Ever since that day you have been the constant thought that I woke up with in the
morning and the last one I thought to when I went to sleep. All day, every day, drunk or sober, I think
about you! The obsession to find you is the only thing that kept me alive and going for all this time and
now after I have finally found you, what do I discover? You and Ryan have concocted everything to fool
me! And for what?! Just to leave me?!"
Every word is a sharp blade cutting Lily's heart. She knows how hard these five years have been for
her too. Thanks to Ryan she have been able to pay back all the debts. Getting here, to today, have
been so damn hard.
Lily, before leaving, thought about the life Rex would be living, far away, apart from her. Would he be
sad?
She kept thinking about it like a masochist during the first year, the second year, the third, the fourth,
and even today, she tried to evade the question, because the voice inside of her would not stop
repeating, "It has been too long, he has forgotten you. He has a new life now.”
He said all of those things from the heart. He had been missing her every single day, he still cares for
her. Now she knows! Besides the anger and sadness, she also finds joy in her heart, an unexplainable
happiness.
Yes! Knowing that he had been missing her for the past five years the same as she did makes her lose
control of her feelings. That is not subjective consciousness. It is an instinctive reaction. She might
deceive him, but she cannot deceive herself.
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