"I'm not coming!" Lily resists his closing, "You go out, and can you go out? I want to stay alone..."
She's suffering from violent mood swings, so Rex can't let her stay here alone.
"If there's anything, come out and talk about it. No matter what you think, you can tell me."
"I don't want to go out." How come she goes out like this?
Although those large scars are on her back, Lily feels that it's as if in her face.
Not only is it ugly, but it is also disgusting!
"Come on. Come out first. I promise I won't get close to you, okay?"
"I don't want to go out!" Lily is in an excitable state. She's like a cat forced into a corner. She's flailing to
guard herself against everything and shouts, "Why should you force me out? Can't I stay here? Can't I
be alone? Facing you will only make me feel I'm uglier. When I think of how I used to face you with my
scarred back, I wish I could immediately disappear in front of you!"
"You can escape for a while. Do you want to escape for the rest of your life?" Rex also says in a low
voice. Although he's sad, he wants to sober her. "Or do you think that the injuries will get healed in this
small bathroom?"
On seeing her frightened gaze, his heart is softened. He lets out a long sigh and says, "I know it's hard
for you to accept it for a while, so you can take your time. It's only the initial stage of treatment, you'll be
fine finally."
"You are deceiving me." Lily shakes her head, and tears quickly fill her eyes. "My scars will not be
eliminated, will they?"
"Yes." Rex affirms without hesitation, "As long as I promise to help you, I will definitely do it."
"However, burn is the most difficult to heal. Even skin grafting can't make my skin looks how it's like
originally. It's so large..."
The more she speaks, the more desperate she feels. She feels as if she has fallen into an ice cellar.
The coldness rises from her feet and spreads throughout her entire body. Her hands, which are
clutching her collar, gradually lost her strength.
Just after sleeping, she lost her memories and got an injured body like this. No one can accept this
body. She's a human, a woman, so how could she be totally unconcerned about that?
She seems to lose all her strength and covers her cheeks with both hands. She falls, leaning against
the cold wall behind her. Tears flow out from her fingers and she mutters helplessly, "What should I
do..."
Finding that she is trapped in emotional disorders, Rex does not hesitate any longer. He walks over to
her and lifts her. He wraps his hands around her leg sockets, allowing her to lie half of her body on him,
in case he would touch the wound on her back.
Lily's unprepared and struggles violently, "Let me go, let me go!"
Rex quickly walks to the bed and gently places her on it. He bends down and places his hands on both
sides of her head. "Lily, honey, calm down. You are not alone. Many people love you and are being with
you. We will all wait for you by your side."
He is not used to speaking warmly, but ever since she fell ill, he expresses his love more than before.
After witnessing her near-death experience, he has seen through many things. For many feelings, if he
doesn't express now, perhaps he will never have a chance to say that in the future, no matter how he
regrets it.
Now, she's at a loss for what to do, facing such a messy life and losing part of her memories. It's
exactly when he needs to be her strong backup.
"Calm down? How can I calm down? Am I supposed to be calm and tell you I'm fine? I don't want to
cause trouble for anyone, but I really can't..." She cries, tears flowing into her hair at the corner of her
eyes and disappearing soon.
Rex's distressed by her situation. He lowers his head and gently kisses the corner of her eyes. He
says, "Everyone is finding the method to cure you. Karl is, and so am I. Everyone is working hard for
you. You don't have to accept it now, but promise me, don't give up, okay?"
Lily feels the warmth of his thin lips on the side of her face. She cries even harder. She clenches her
teeth and does not make a sound, but her shoulders are shaking non-stop. How she's trying to control
herself and hide her weakness saddens Rex.
"Don't cry. When you cry, I am just heart-broken and I forget everything."
Lily suppresses her sobs and says, "Don't you feel disgusted looking at me like this?"
He's so outstanding, so tall and handsome, yet he accompanies such an ugly woman in the ward every
day. Even an average man would not be able to stand it.
Hearing her question, Rex raises his hand and lets her see the deep sincerity and warmth in his eyes.
"You got injured partly because of me. You are suffering all those pains because I didn't protect you
well. If you have to say I'm disgusted, yes, I am. But I'm disgusted with myself instead of you."
He curls up his lips bitterly but it's not a smile, "Lily, I love you, whether you are beautiful or ugly,
healthy or ill, for me, that's ok as long as it's you. Only after I found out that you were alive, I can barely
take a hold on myself. If it wasn't for you, I would have collapsed."
He has never said that to anyone. He carefully kept them to his heart, cherishing and protecting them
for fear that someone would destroy them again.
Lily's so moved that she feel like crying. Even speaking a single word is as difficult as slicing through
her throat, and she really struggles hard to find her voice. Her tears blur his face and everything in front
of her. Her voice is so desperate, "But I also forget about you."
Hearing her reply, Rex's eyes turn red, although he's so strong. He kisses her on the forehead gently,
as if he's kissing an incomparably precious fragile object. "If you can forget about me along with those
hurtful memories, I don't care."
That video tape's a thorn in Rex's side. It isn't that he cares about her being sullied and insulted, but
that he hates his incompetence over and over again. She's so pure and so beautiful. If she gets all her
memory back, she will definitely not be able to bear it. So maybe she should forget it, and forgetting her
all unhappiness will be the only consolation to him.
Lily doesn't know how to describe her feeling. She feels the intense love transmitted through his eyes
and language. His love is so deep and shocking that no one wouldn't be moved. However, he's way out
of her now, as she's like this. Perhaps the people around him would feel disgusted at a glance at her.
She cries and shakes her head, "You're out of my league. I give up..."
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